My ego loves change I can pretend I am in charge of. We can all change jobs/roles, homes, countries, habits, values and even beliefs about ourselves and the world we live in. Those times I initiate and significantly impact my life in ways that make me feel good can be most thrilling. If I can crack a nut that has been holding me back from the inside (like an unhelpful habit or belief), all the better! 'Up there too are the surprise changes I havent predicted; the ones that turn out to be opportunities blazing in front of me like a fire on a cold night….magnets for my attention. These days I am more open to those random unexpected changes than I have been since childhood when I rolled with them relatively easily.
It doesnt seem to matter which way you cut it, change can be thrilling and terrifying, hugely significant or non-eventful. It can also be transformational or temporary. Water into ice or steam can always go back…that is temporary change. Transformational change has no 'back switch – like grapes into wine or the caterpillar into the butterfly, or when we make a decision that changes our orientation in life forever. We can put energy into resisting it or go with the flow, all depending on what the change brings with it, and what we have to release to embrace it.
CHANGE AND ATTACHMENT
Changes that require letting go of that which I am used to and enjoy are harder, depending on what level of attachment I have and how much I am compelled to cling to an old reality. I have the potential to behave badly in the face of these changes. Those 'out of my comfort zone ones are a challenge but the worst of all for me are those I feel I have no control over…where my attachment is to control itself. Change that evokes a sense of powerlessness is not a pretty state it is very uncomfortable and can be quite depressing. These are the changes that are waves and rip-tides that tug my feet out unexpectedly, that come upon me too fast to react or take a decent breath, the ones that force me to fight for my life, all the while terrified. Those are the most frightening to me – especially when I know I am ill equipped emotionally – like when I have to face a sudden death or have no clue how I will manage in a new reality, the landscape fundamentally different.
THE CHALLENGE
My challenge in all times of change is to accept the new reality as fast as I can, influence it if and where I can, cooperate with it if I must, navigate through as best I can and be of service to others where I can if the change affects more than just me. In other words the challenge is always to reclaim my power to choose the change. I notice my personal challenge can require me to give way and yield, without 'giving up (defeatism used to be a default position for me). When I find myself at points in my life where the surf is strong I am challenged to respect the force of nature that created me, and cooperate…some might say get on my knees and sit in humility where I belong, reminded again of my place and that I am only ever as good as my ability to choose how I respond – my only real power.
At the risk of getting a bit personal in this vast sea called the Internet, I sense myself at such a place right now. Change, the transformational kind, is in the air. Surf is up. I will tell you more about what it brings as I work on riding it. I sense it on a very private and personal level, and I sense others around me feeling it too. I also sense it in the bigger picture. Can you feel a swell growing towards waves that will eventually break and transform everything they touch?One really obvious current is the way the internet is facilitating whole species transformation right in front of our noses.
THE TRANSFORMATIVE PORTAL THAT IS THE WORLD WIDE WEB
The portal to the global brain we call the Internet is a most clear mirror of our collective consciousness if we can 'see it in its entirety. It is an endless space where everything can find a way to 'be – the good, the bad and the hideously ugly aspects of us. We will continue to see the way the web shapes Humanity as we gather hindsight but for now it is a human free-for-all space where every indulgence and highest aspiration can take root. It is still so relatively new to the collective consciousness and not everyone is hooked up yet but it wont be long…there are predictions of another billion people being online in the next couple of years. Communication technology is transforming our species.
Our consciousness is the new 'land of exploration for those daring enough to @dventure there. Now is the time we can move beyond the current ego-crowded world and into the wide-open spaces of what we are together that we cannot be alone. The Internet makes this more possible than ever before but we also need to do the work on ourselves…now we can go to that field, and till the soil there. As Rumi said "There is a field – I will meet you there". That field is a field of consciousness. We can affect transformation of our species if we yield to our positive potentials in 'the field where all is possible.
As my 'work keeps working on me, I know your 'work must be working on you. May you consciously choose your life orientation and have a great month as we head for Spring and what change – transformative change - that will release in our world.
My own orientation is all about surrender to the inevitable. I choose that surrender towards my own personal Spring –I sense it is time for some deep breaths and a leap of faith!
And thats it, from my view
Amanda x
Friday, August 9, 2013
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